Some Lyrics

Sound the bugle now
PLay it just for me
As the seasons change
Remember how I used to be
Now I can't go on
I can't even start
I've got nothin left
Just an empty heart
I'm a soldier
Wounded so I
Must give up the fight
There's nothin more for me
Lead me away
Or leave me lyin here

Sound the bugle now
Tell them I don't care
There's not a road I know
That leads to anywhere
Without a light, I
Fear that I will stumble in the dark
Lay right down, decide
Not to go on

Then from on high
Somewhere in the distance
There's a voice that calls
"Remember who you are"
If you lose yourself
Your courage soon will follow
So be strong tonight
Remember who you are

Hello little neglected online diary thingy,

Yeah so, finals week. Two done today and three to go. Tried to get my last speech back during my prof's office hours today but, wonder of wonders, he wasn't there when he said he would be. I'm not surprised because he is chronically late showing up to class (I wonder how he got a job in the first place if his punctuality is basically nonexistent) but seriously....not being in your office during final week of all things is NOT cool. 

I didn't leave my J364 prof a good evaluation. That felt good. Rob, don't take Kornegay. 

Janet got mad earlier because she felt sick thinking about her calculus exam and when I said, "Well, didn't you tell me you had an A in that class?" she jumped all over me about getting a B on it. I tend to say the same thing when I get worried about exams, but hearing it from the other side when we both know she'll do well was ridiculous. Now I know how I must sound to people I whine/complain to about crap that generally doesn't matter in the long run. Sure college is important, but my linguistics final isn't going to kill me and nor is it going to be the deciding factor in the overall happiness of my life. And speaking of happiness in life, I remembered a saying Dave has after an exam that went particularly well: "I punched it in the face!" As exams go, I kicked the linguistics one in the balls and didn't look back to help it stand up again. I feel pretty good.

Hmm what else is important....the BEACH!!! Supposed to be going there next weekend if grandma is ok. She was in the hospital a few weeks ago but is home now so mom hopes we can leave her for a weekend to escape from the general madness of things (both at home, I suppose, and for me here at school).

Also importantly, I finally get to come home on Monday afternoon. Don't get me wrong - school is great but only for so long. There are only so many things for me to do here and now it's just dull. I'm ready for summer and a change of routine. It's funny how I was counting down the days til I got to move here, and now I'm counting down the days until I can move out.

I don't know how many of you read this thing anymore, but here's a random song for you. Props to whoever can figure out the movie I took it from. I enjoyed actually finding the entire song on the internet this afternoon.

You found hope, you found faith
Found how fast she could take it away
Found true love, lost your heart
Now you don't know who you are
She made it easy, made it free
Made you hurt til you couldn't see
Sometimes it stops, sometimes it flows
Baby, that is how loves goes

You will fly and you will crawl
God knows even angels fall
No such thing as you've lost it all
God knows even angels fall

It's a secret that no one tells
One day it's heaven, one day it's hell
It's no fairy tale, take it from me
That's the way it's supposed to be

(chorus)

You laugh, you cry
No one knows why
But oh the thrill of it all
You're on the ride
You might as well open your eyes

Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along
In the bitterness
But I stayed up
With you all night
And I know
How to save a life
How to save a life

Now, I don't watch Grey's Anatomy but I do like this song. I think I heard it while driving to work one day last year and forgot about it, then heard it again recently. I can't figure out the video but that's ok. I also like Hinder's song Lips of an Angel. One of my old roomies had that as her ringtone and I never liked it, but that was only because I'd never heard the whole song before. (Plus, people called her nonstop so it got rather annoying).

I should be writing. I have a few projects due next week that I haven't finished yet. On the bright side, my advisor told me yesterday that I don't have to take summer school unless I fail a class, and she looked through all my past grades and said, "I believe in you!" So that was nice of her. I was glad to hear I don't have to take summer classes. That would be my summer ruined. Some other advisor told me I'd need summer school to graduate on time.  So that person told me wrong. Ugh. I've had so many more bad advisors than good.

If you want to read my story once it's posted (should be up before 3:30 Tuesday) you can go to http://dustysmusings.blogspot.com.

What is done out of love always takes place beyond good and evil.

Friedrich Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil, Aphorism 153
German philosopher (1844 - 1900)

And for one who tells me always to not accept something about myself but instead try to change it:  You are smart, and you make me proud every day.

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.
~Aristotle

Merry Christmas, guys! Well, almost. It's tomorrow since it's now after midnight.

I never know what to say on here anymore. I think the only person who reads this anymore is Dave, and I can tell him this stuff in person anyway. I guess it's just a formality that I keep it up. Everyone else seems to have neglected this place since graduation because of one thing or another. Oh well, it's nice to come back here sometimes.

In other news, I'm glad the semester is over. The last week was horrible but only because I made it that way. I worry too much about exams that don't really matter that much anyway. Thanks to Dave, though, I finally got through it and was glad to get home. Next semester I'm not looking forward to because I have public speaking and statistics, the two classes I've been avoiding since high school. I hope those will be easier than I expect them to be. English I think will be fun, even though I didn't get the grammar class I wanted because of a scheduling conflict.

I can't think of anything else to write about.

Merry Christmas, David, and I love you and hope you have a great time in 'Bama!